Where are You

You are in my heart,

Behind my eyes,

In my dreams

But you are not here.

I'm lost in a blur,

Wishing,

That I could hold you, 

Kiss you,

Never let you go.

A million miles, or a step away,

it's still to far.

Why does fate play such cruel games.

When will i win.

The prize,

You with me.

The cost,

It does not mater.

One day, ohhh one day in my arms you will be.

But until then know,

That you are in my thoughts, 

The reason for my prayers,

The life within my soul.

Turn to Me

Turn to me, when your skies are gray.

Turn to me, when the pain won't go away.

Turn to me, when the nights are cold.

Turn to me, when you need someone to hold.

Let me be the shoulder you cry on.

Let me hold you, from dawn to dawn.

Let me kiss you, when you have fear.

Let me hold you, safe and near.

Come to me, when times are tough.

Come to me, when you have had enough.

Come to me, when it feels like the end.

Come to me, when you need a friend.

I want to be the one, to make you smile.

I want to be the one, to walk the mile.

I want to be the one, to hold you tight.

I want to be the one, watching over you at night.

So please baby turn to me,

No matter what, the problem may be.

Turn to me, and I will give to you life.

Come to me, be my beautiful wife

Hidden Eyes

I stand here, on the shore and stare off into the night. Soft breeze upon my back, the moon smiling on my face. My eyes reflecting in the stars, as the moon casts my eerie shadow behind me.

Turning, I look down, wondering what lies behind my eyes. In the blackness of my shadow, I see beyond.

Always truth and kindness had been there, but tonight, ohh tonight, something else lurks in the vast darkness. Pain, anger, rage, despair.

I the realize, this is why, I hide my eyes now from the world. Only for brief moments, does the man I am, reveal him self and allow me, the sanity of sight. Hidden behind the pain, I wait for the moment, that the truth can return. Happiness is just a soft kiss, and a bright smile away.

In Solitude Death did Call My Name

In Solitude Death Did Call My Name

While lost in solitude, death did call my name.
She whispered softly, words of yearning into my heart.
She guided my hand with precision such, the edge of the blade a razor sharp touch.
She moaned in pleasure as my life did flow.
Streaming down,
absorbed below
In the distance, with pain and fear
A cry of sorrow within my ear
Love lost strangers, a mellow autumn eve
Winter wishes, and fall tinted leaves.
The joys of the world a flash in my eye
As I whisper to death
I do not wish to die

And I thought.....

And I thought you were the one....

Every day that passes, should feel like closer to forever. Yet, it feels like further away.

With every question my mind asks, the answers found, not to be what i hoped,

I wonder why i even try. Lies, and deceit, No longer can i trust, nor believe.

The one for me, my fairytale love, my happily-ever-after, is nothing more then another chapter,

in the nightmare. Night after night, haunted with visions, with dreams of the love i long for,

the love I desire, for you. But dreams only come true in fairytales, and fairytale, this is not.

And i thought you were the one...... But i guess i was wrong. I guess the one is stuck forever, in the dreams I dream. Stuck forever in my heart, but not in my arms. Why must love be so cruel, why must my heart long for something, someone, it can never have. Why oh why, did i think you were the one?????